A quick story

Hello My friend.

Today has been a difficult day full of anxiety and moods. I am tired and fed up with not really knowing what to do. Is this a good technique or am I making things worse. Is this one of those things I'm supposed to be a hard ass about or is this something we accommodate? Oh how I miss Dr.C! So many things I don't yet have the answers to, but today I did learn one thing. I apparently wear this tension for all to see on my face. Here's my story.
I popped out this evening, around 6pm to grab some groceries for dinner. It was dark and late and I was just trying to get from A to B as quickly as possible when a man stepped out from an alley way and yelled at me as I flew by.

'Excuse me miss, hey miss, is this yours?'

I of course kept going, but then he yelled;

'Miss, I think you dropped something. Yeah, this is yours isn't it?'

So I turned to look, just in case I had dropped something. He's pointing at the pavement, yelling 'you dropped this, it's yours isn't it', but there's nothing there. So now my thought is that he's trying to get me to come closer so he can drag me into the alley and mug me. However just as I turn to march swiftly on, he yells.

'Yeah, that's your smile down there isn't it Miss?'

I turn around and he's standing there beaming at me and he had me. A smile spread across my face.

'Oh good, you found it' and with that he walks off.

I hate to think what I must have looked like to prompt him to that performance. He must have only seen me for a split second as I passed by. I'm a teeth clencher and grinder, I know that's where I hold my tension, but I had no idea it was that bad!
Anyway, Birdie, he made my day. As soon as that smile spread across my face, I felt better. I felt lighter and more able to cope. I carried that goofy smile all the way to the grocery store, with a few chuckles thrown in along the way. I smiled at every person I passed. I engaged with the other customers in the crowded veggie section, making eye contact and beaming away. Perhaps I lifted a cloud or two for them after a hard day, I don't know, but it taught me a lesson about letting go and smiling more. I can't control things around here, I can only do my best, and now we will end our day smiling in celebration that we made it through another one, happy and healthy. The rest will fall into place.

Here's to all the new smiles that have been appearing in your life lately from our beautiful Fledgling.
Always Yours
Sparrow